Hujan - Aku Skandal (the story at the end of this lyrics)

Kan ku berikan semua
Agar kau gembira sentiasa
Engkau tetap pergi
Pergi meninggalkan ku sendiri

Jangan disimpan tiada rahsia
Katakan saja ku terima
Engkau tetap pergi
Pergi meninggalkan ku sendiri

Waktu duka dulukita lalui bersama
Bahgia bagaikan malamditemani bintang terang
Hancur hati bila kauundurkan diri
Meninggalkan daku
Meninggalkan daku sendiri

Senyuman manis dibawa angin
Ku tunggu dikau terasa dingin
Engkau tetap pergi
Pergi meninggalkan ku sendiri...

Semenjak dua menjak ni selalu dengar lagu ni kat radio, ye la dok drive dalam keta hari2 dah confem dekat sejam gak. Kalau kena dengan jam, lagi la lama dengar radio. Boleh kata tiap2 kali nak pegi & balik keje gerenti lagu ni di pasang kat Hotfm.

Kalau hayati betul2 lirik ni ada gak yang terkena kat aku masa zaman2 muda “riang ria” dulu, bukan first love, tapi about friendship. Yang “waktu duka dulu” tu, dia la yang duka. I am just being there for the friendship. So that’s why we both experience it bak rangkap dalam lirik, “kita lalui bersama”, dan “bahgia bagaikan malam ditemani bintang terang” (tapi kalau bercinta tu maybe la rasa camtu kot tapi bukan aku la tu beb)

“hancur hatiku bila kau undurkan diri”: selepas bertahun, problem dia dah pun settle, most of it with my help and support. Tapi terkena lak giliran aku ada problem. So in need of someone support aku call le member ni. Apa yang menyakitkan hati bila aku perlukan pertolongan dengan selambanya aku dapat jawapan “I cannot help u”! (sigh…)

Terkedu aku dengar jawapan macam tu, masa dia ada problem dulu cerita kat aku, aku la yang jadi pendengar yang setia, yang boleh tolong aku tolong kalau yang tak boleh tu aku bagi moral support. Aku bukan apa, at least dengar la dulu masalah aku macam aku support dia dulu, bukan rugi apa pun sekadar berkongsi pendapat. Tapi mentang2 problem dah solve kawan terus dilupakan. Apa dia tak ingat ke sapa yang beria2 tolong dia dulu sampai kadang2 aku terasa beban, tapi aku tolong gak sebab memikirkan kawan.

Sampai satu hari on normal conversation, terjadi la pertengakaran lidah pasal benda yang terjadi beberapa hari sebelum tu. Dia yang buat salah besar kat aku di kala aku menghadapi banyak kesukaran, ditambah lagi kesalahan yang dia buat secara sengaja, tapi cakap maaf macam takde kekesalan lansung. Dari cara dia cakap tu aku tak dapat rasa pun keikhlasan daripada maaf yang dilafazkan. Kalau salah kecik aku tak kisah. Kalau janji tu tak pernah tepati, berlawanan dengan aku setiap kali janji mesti aku tunaikan.

Ah! malas la aku nak cerita pasal kes tu, buat sakit hati je. Sejak dari itu aku tak cakap terus dengan dia, kalau berselisih pun aku buat macam takde orang lalu. Skang ni aku dah tak ingat berapa lama lost connection, dah lama pun tak Nampak. Bagus gak, tak le sakit hati aku (hehehe) aku rasa kalau aku Nampak tepi Jalan mau je aku langgar & blah buat tak tau, macam yang aku mimpi semalam (owh!)

Aku ni boleh dikatakan loyal, tapi bila jadi gini, mengubah aku untuk tidak percayakan orang walau sesiapa pun kecuali my family. Tapi kadang2 ada masalah yang hanya boleh di kongsi dengan rakan yang tak berapa sesuai di kongsi dengan family. Now, I just keep it for myself. There are friends that I could believe but I’m afraid it will happen again. I don’t want to lose friend. Before I end tonite aku nak bagi satu moral or the story. “jangan jadi kacang lupakan kulit, mungkin hari ni kita bleh buat something yang bleh lukakan orang yang pernah tolong kita, tapi bila hadapi masalah balik cemana nak cari kawan yang setia? What goes around comes around”. Fikir-fikirkan.

exhausted

its been a long... long... week...
hands on work...
its been 8 days straight including sunday...
damn i hate this job...

First Death in the Organization

So many things happen last week, and I’m thinking of writing something about it. Most of it involves bad things or tragedy. There’s one fatal accident take place, it does not happen at my workplace but it is a fatal road accident for our technician. This is the first person who died while working with this company. No wonders so many people attended the funeral.

Actually I didn’t know him much, only one conversation between me and himself during maintenance meeting. I only answer his question as a superior to give information about non-executive problem and that was about last two month. Most technicians seem like awkward to speak with me except for mechanical technician. He’s a silent person though and so am I. And he’s an electrical technician so that’s why along the time at work only one conversation between us which were the first and the last till he passed away.

The accident cause was still a mystery, police didn’t find any criminal act take place. That morning he drive his car but he went home during lunch hour and change to ride a motorcycle. When he is on his way back to work, maybe around 2pm the tragedy occurred. It was said that the bike he’s riding skidded at the roundabout where not many people pass thru except during peak hours.

The back of his skull crack and blood flows thru the back of his head, nose and mouth. Nobody see the incident and nobody pass by the road where his motor skidded, the path was vacate and very silent. He remains lying unconscious on the side of the road helplessly waiting for somebody to rescue him. His cell phone ringing, but nothing he could do. It was his fiancé calling so many times but it was no answer. After 2 hours later (after 4 pm-when people came home from work) passerbies get him to Serdang Hospital. Since he was lying there on a hot day for 2 hours he suffers a lot of blood loss.

At the hospital, he depends on the oxygen supply but his blood pressure was zero! The chance was 50-50. Doctors could not do anything about the bad concussion unless he has the strength to live. After 11 hours struggle between life and death, he draws the last breath at 1am.

Tomorrow morning police found the helmet that he wears at the accident site. His new bike was found with minor damage, and his helmet have a new scratch mark at the back side exactly at the same part he suffers the injury. Most of plant complex staff came to give a last respect at the morgue and travels to Muar for his funeral.

His mother and fiancé again took a last glance before he was buried. My colleague and I ourselves lowers his body into the grave. Sadness fills the air, even more badly when seeing his mother and fiancé crying during the funeral and ‘talqin’ recital. Just before Asar prayer, the funeral ends. After prayer more than half of us left for Putrajaya except those who ride with facility manager and operation manager. Nine of us attended the ‘tahlil’ as a wish (hajat) from the father. Later on we head home and stop for few times for meal and prayers. I arrived home in KL at 11pm tired.

Al-fatihah to Allahyarham Zulhasyimi.

dn: tak sangka pagi tu sebelum meeting nampak dia lalu dan salam2 dengan semua orang, dan 5 jam kemudian incident berlaku. dengarnya lunch hour orang ajak lunch tapi dia balik rumah untuk tukar motor. takdir..

Pada suatu hari di Terengganu

Pada suatu hari, di sebuah negeri yang mempunyai stadium yang baru setahun disiapkan, di pagi yang tenang... Pada masa yang sama, Ultraman telah dikuarantin di sebuah Hospital di Jepun kerana terkena jangkitan Influenza A H1N1.



(Flashback)Seekor Resaksa yang sebelumnya telah mendarat di Jaya Supermarket di petaling Jaya dan sama sekali telah meruntuhkan jaya supermarket, sekaligus membawa maut kepada 7 orang yang bekerja di bangunan tersebut.



Phobia dengan kejadian itu, resakse itu telah terbang jauh ke timur lalu mengamuk dan menyebabkan bumbung stadium baru itu runtuh (gambar di atas). Pada ketika ini kemana hilangnya Ultraman-Ualtraman yang lain? Adakah Mereka semua juga terkena Jangkitan Influenza H1N1? Bangunan mana lagi yang akan runtuh selepas ini?


expiry date: 16july 2009

A**hole

If you take fresh grads with no experience to be a leader, let say a best student from a university. Without proper experience at high management level, that person could be the pain in the ass. It’s not just pain in the ass for certain people but also affect the whole organization.

Best student maybe good in theory, but without experience, I might say that person is damn son of a Bi**h! “kecik-kecik taknak mampos, dah besar menyusahkan orang!” thank god I’m not in that f**ker department, but still his images make my eye sore. a** hole!!