Esok Nak Raya

Esok dah nak raya tapi aku still keje lagi, shift lak tu. esok & lusa pun keje lagi... raya tahun lepas sehari sebelum raya aku masa ni tengah cari airport limo utk naik flight malam tu. tapi tahun ni lak pada masa ni. tengah menaip blog dalam keje shift.



hai.. macamana la keadaan kat umah skang ni ek... mesti riuh dok bersiap nak raya.. aku sorang je yang takde kat umah. adik beradik yang lain suma dah ada kat umah.. aku jumpa dengan abah sekali je lepas raya tahun lepas. adik aku yang bongsu lak tak pernah jumpa aku pas raya lepas.. anak2 buah kat kota bharu pun sama la..



puasa tahun ni lansung tak dapat nak berbuka kat umah.. tak dapat merasa pun kuih2 kat kota bharu, nasib baik mama ada bawak gak spare & tinggal dalam fridge umah kak ngah, kalau tak.. memang tak merasa lansung. pasar ramadhan petang ni ada lagi kot.. tu pun dah berkurang tak sampai 1/4 yg meniaga sepanjang bulan ramadhan.



aduiii... rindunye nak balik umah.. kat radio tak berenti2 lagi lagu raya.. balik kampung la.. dendang perantau la.. saloma la.. tau plak DJ bagitau mak menunggu kepulangan anakanda.. tapi anakanda balik hari raya ketiga.. tak sempat la nak merasa nasik dagang nampaknye.. takpe.. janji dapat balik..

Raya 2005

"indahnya sungguh dihari raya... ramainya orang bersuka ria... sanak saudara..."

aku dah luluskan cuti budak-budak aku... tapi cuti aku? nampaknye macam tak balik beraya la aku tahun ni, ingatkan tak balik raya pertama, raya kedua bleh la balik kampung... tapi macam tak dapat jek... Arggghhh!! dah la dah setahun tak balik umah... tak kira time raya aku nak gi gak solat raya.. operation tak operation lepas habis selesai khutbah raya kat utp baru aku masuk keje...

awek2 pun dah nak balik kampung masing2... tapi bukan awek aku la.. awek org lain.. awek aku? insya'allah nanti akan jadi awek aku gak nanti... sapa pasang lagu raya time aku keje memang nak kena lempang...

Balik Kampung?

Yesterday, I went for jumaat prayer in UTP and they already utilize the new mosque which my company will supply electricity and chilled water for the mosque air conditioning system. And last night I perform my terawih prayer there. Everything was like before back in year 2002 and 2003. It’s just that the question comes from SMS. After terawih prayer I drove home, change my clothes and drive straight to the plant for performance test. It is performance test for black start diesel generator. All the test only completed after 2 and half hours, and I went home at 2am.

Today I went to the office at 10am. Parked my car without reverse parking and went straight into control center room and ignoring the plant manager. Firstly discussing with my partner about effluent system performance test and PA system performance test. For PA system performance test CCR staff played “RAYA” song. First time in my life when I heard that song I felt sad. Why? Because when UTP utilize the new mosque, we must supply our electricity and chilled water to the mosque for RAYA prayer.

It reminds me about my mum voice when I say I’m not sure whether I can go home or not during Raya Puasa holiday. Her voice was different, I know she feel sad about it, but still she encourage me to work hard. For this Raya, what ever happens in the morning still I will perform my raya prayer first and think about the rest later. Went home? Yes I will but I don’t know how many days, since I am the head of operation it is my responsibility to keep this plant running efficiently.

2 a.m.

its already 2 a.m. and i am still in the plant since after dinner.. waiting for the gas turbine testing to end..
at first running on full load at 4.2 MW supplying to UTP. my ME thermodynamic lecturer and my manufacturing lecturer (dr Amin) also come to the plant to see the test... i'm surprised that dr amin still remember my name.. and for them it is quite weird i'm wearing red coverall and not yellow coverall (petronas)
well.. nevermind.. what i am thinking now is just my room, my bed and my pillows... still got half an hour left before i can lay my head and rest.. sleepy already... sigh..

Mengapa Begitu?

Tadi aku kuar ipoh... macam biasa... sorang..
reminds me masa zaman-zaman jadi student first year kat utp dulu.. selalu je kuar ipoh solo.. ye la... nak ngorat orang masa tu tak berani.. skang pun sama la... cuma terbalik je.. skang ni orang plak ngorat kita kah kah kah... dunia nak terbalik ke?


tapi kalau setakat jeling-jeling aku buat dekk je.. tapi bila tengok orang lain jalan dengan awek tu terasa gak.. kita bila lak... tapi datang lak kata-kata dalam hati "ah! malaslah" nampak gayanye lambat lagi la... hahaha... orang kata kalau kita tak cari.. nanti akan datang sendiri kat kita... ye ke? perhaps...


tapi apa yang sure.. from this september to november.. i will not be able to find one... will be too busy handing over work and document... four petronas engineers have to handover their task and document to me... ONLY ME! coz in that power plant now... we have only 2 engineers. the plant manager and me!


just that i hope time raya nanti jangan tak dapat balik kampung sudah... dah nak setahun dah aku tak balik kampung... sekali jumpa abah... abah kata dia nampak kita dah lain, wajah dah berubah.. and so is mama..


saudara mara pun sama la.. tapi bila time raya gitu aku sure soalan kawen memang tak boleh nak elak lagi dah... so far sepupu2 yang sebaya hatta yang lagi muda sekali pun dah kawen.. aku lak tak dapat nak pegi... time raya nanti sure kena tanya bila bleh nak makan nasik minyak kita?
kalau diorang tanya gitu aku nak jawab
"bulan duabelas nanti... tapi tak tau lagi tahun bila... hahahaha... kalau nak cepat tolong le bawak bakal pengantin perempuan sekali..." (ayat yang last tu macam tak berani je aku nak cakap) hahahaha lantak la...

Lonely...

Its been a long time since I leave my sister home in sepang. Now I'm back for few days just to get all my stuff since I heard my boss wanted me to stay with my job in UTP. Since I left KLCC in the beginning of august 2005, I miss a few person that have nothing to do with the powerplant.. one I always have dinner together.. always give me useful advice for my life and my survival in KL.. just when I arrive in KL from perak I wanted to meet the person.. I call.. SMS.. but no replies.. frustrated, slowly I walked to the LRT station. Still in the LRT I tried to contact but it is still the same.. tired of the journey and not having enough sleep the nite before becoz of working on the night shift, still I tried..but everything was no use..

I change my transit in Bandar tasik selatan to ride a commuter to Nilai.. at that time my fever get worse added with the frustration.. last time I promise to meet in the end of august..and now I don't know what is happening between us..neither calls from the other side nor sms.. last time I was strong but this time I am really weak and down.. at home I showered, pray, ate my dinner without appetite and sleep.. that nite I sleep dreamless and followed with bad cough..

Early morning, I woke up and try to contact again but it is still the same..its been more than a week I didn't hear the voice.. today I think I have lost one of the most priceless person I ever met in life.. I had lost a few...but I losing this really make me down...when I leave this home and my growing up nephew and niece back in UTP I will be alone again...
Alone facing the workload and big responsibility without moral support...I'm on my own...

Lonely...
I'm so lonely...
I have nobody...
I'm on my own...

Sigh....

Escape From KLCC

at last i escaped (transfered) from KLCC plant...
i'm free....
no more mister sparkling...
no more bitch operation manager..
its just that my post have changed...
from rotating equipment engineer to Operation engineer..
big responsibility...
and have to do extra work!!
and staying far away from my family and friends and my personal asisstant..

Performance Review

hari jumaat lepas... secara mengejut ada performance review... bagitau pukul 10.. tapi performance review lepas solat jumaat... I feel there will be something wrong in it.. but I tell myself to be confident...

my maintenance manager make the intro to the review... but it is different.. performance review should be like a job interview... the staff should tell about what they do and all that stuff.. but this one... they talk and I listen... daymn! so I hear one by one point that he reviewed and I admit what he say some is true... and some are not.. I just say nothing..

then it is the turn of the plant manager... I listen one by one... totally I disagreed when he said I have no initiative... so to defend my self i tell him... last time I volunteer to work in day and night shift just for the sake of learning from the lowest staff in the organization until my real post as engineer, but he stop me to do that last time, because he said he want me to focused on mechanical handover... so I said what in the hell was that!! [silent... admitting his stupid fucking management i guess] but still he want to defend [ego?] " u can still join the shift at night" to hell with that... malas aku nak layan.. lantak kaulah 'mr sparkling' manage tak reti... mau cakap banyak.. sekali aku report sama director baru ko tau...

then it is the turn for this bloody bitch.. the operation manager... what in the fucking hell she has to do with maintenance engineer like me? still wants to comment about... my attitude?! FUCK! everybody else is ok with my attitude and u comment about my attitude?! WTF!!! I totally disagree with this bitch and defend my self... this bitch only making assumption from what she see... without knowing the real things happened behind... last time I use 'nenek' to pronounce her name with my friends... but now i pronounce her as A BITCH! patut la umur 40 tahun lebih tak kawen2 memang dasar BEEEEYAAAATTCCCHHHH!!! she licks the plant manager's ass to get credits..

after the performance review I tell all my colleague to condemn her during her overall performance review... and guess what... they also hate her since the first day communicate with this bitch...and some of em is making a big plan to make her miserable...

as for me... if I had a chance.. there will be something coming up for the things they do to me... or maybe just let what comes around, turns around...

What Happened Last Week

Last week, I joined my staff in operation who worked in shift, I joined 2 days and 1 night but could not continue into the second night due to mechanical hand over and I have to supervise the new engineer who will be replacing me in KLCC. So I am not entitled for the 4 days off…







Last week also every executive get their business card, but me… the spelling was wrong and have to resend back to the HQ. But after sending back the plant manager asks the admin not to reprint my business card because later I will be transferred in other plant. Then when I meet contractors and supplier again they have to take my number because I don’t have my business card to give. What in the hell is this plant manager doing? What a stupid decision… (ni yang buat aku malas nak dengar kata nih... i will not obey his command later... rebel!!! yaaa!!)



Last week also the director meets me and tells me about my transfer. He said "Mie, kita akan amik alih power plant kat sana tahun depan.. so ko kena stay sini dulu train engineer baru sampai dia faham & confident.. kalau dia tak confident ko stay la kat sini baru padan muka ko nak sangat kena transfer..." adeh... terkena sebijik... tapi takpe... time hand over aku lanyak jek engineer baru nih.. kah kah kah...

My Life... Lately

Now... the training have changed...
sometimes i have to go for a technical course in Putrajaya...
while in KLCC i have to start working on shift..
4days work and maybe 4 days off...
but it could not be exactly 4 days off because we have to attend the course in putrajaya.. going for the course is somewhat fun! we can get away from the problem in klcc unless this one manager come along to the course.. [takleh la nak mengular] heheehe...
last nite, i went home to sepang... just having dinner and sleep on my superbly comfortable double king size dreamland bed... owh..
Few minutes after arrived i fell asleep... [gile best tido] wake up solat & watch AF3
and now less than 24hours later.. i'm already back in KLCC.. tonite..normally sleeping in the sleeping bag.. [nasib baik ada somebody who really care about me, msg nak tuck in bed everynite]
in term of expenses for dining everyday.. normally quite expensive but affordable for breakfast and lunch... but lately dinner time... can exceed more than 20... there goes my money to upgrade my old car...[kete kebal putih] << {macam NATO jek}
however.. having dinner with the one who care for me.. priceless...
she's one in a trillion!
sigh... if only i am her h....

Sedutan Filem Titanic

suatu malam..
menghantar sms sambil tengok cerita titanic..
tengok adegan leanardo dicaprio dengan Kate winslet yg tak rela dipisahkan and they say 'you jump, i jump'
so i sms the same to her with a joke...
'you jump, i jump' bla bla bla
and guess what she answer...
"ooo.. i jump u jump... u jump... i tunggu dulu.. tengok u jump dulu k!" bla bla bla
hehehe.. sungguh kureng...
ada jugak orang nak kena gigit ni..
hahahahaha

Satu Cerita di Suatu Hari

satu hari minggu lepas ada seorang awek ajak aku teman dia minum di klcc, so aku pun on ajela... kena plak petang tu keje abis awal.. macam tau-tau jek org ada plan petang tu.. so i sms la plan memang jadik...

petang tu dia suh tunggu kat mandarin oriental KLCC.. aku lalu jek depan mandarin oriental tetiba rasa ada satu bayangan mengekori... sekali toleh... jeng jeng... its her! mak ai.. parking kat jockey mandarin oriental! pergh... bila nampak dia rasa macam nak pengsan sekejap... muka memang muka macam teen japanese.. so that day pegi la makan2 kat foodcourt KLCC.. pas makan & solat maghrib pegi jalan2 kat dalam klcc pastu jalan2 kat klcc park.. one thing yg aku perasan ramai couple lain yg dok tenung aku.. agaknye awek ni lawa sgt kot.. ah lantaklah..

later2 dok berbual kat depan klcc fountain.. dia dok tengok2 kat 3 towers, 2 klcc tower and one maxis tower. what she says about maxis tower is that building looks like a piece of cake yang dah kena makan kat orang... hahhaha

i have a great time that night.. i never dream of walking with such a beautiful lady like her... if my friends see me with her sure diorang tak percaya. i know she could be a great friends.... it is a nice thing to hear her voice and laughter... but for sure she will give a comment for this blog... jgn marah aaa

Apa Nak Jadi...

sejak aku keje kat klcc ni banyak benda baru yang aku nampak... some of em could cause culture shock... this is what i hate when i see the truth... i hate the truth because the truth is just "out there" in the KLCC park and around Suria KLCC...

Aku biasa arrive in my office in the sunday evening... masa ni biasa la lepak2 kat conference room, tengok tv kalau dahaga lepak je kat pantry...

tapi satu hari aku lepak kat control room... sini suma display CCTV ada... so meninjau le keadaan sekeliling klcc park... ramai... couple... cuba kalau zoom & cari target and focus there... there i see the truth... i see what they do... its was unbelievable... kalau kat tempat tersorok lagi la teruk... yang paling aku tak paham suma pompuan yang buat tu bertudung... muka alahai comel-comel.. tapi perangai... masyaÁllah... makin lama aku lepak tengok, makin aku terasa sakit... bukan saja sakit mata.. hati pun sakit...

terasa macam tertusuk2 kat dalam hati ni... sesekali aku tanya diri aku sendiri macamana aku nak cari bakal isteri kalau suma perempuan melayu bertudung begini (tapi ada yang cuma duduk2 je, tapi lagi banyak yg teruk la kalau ikut statistik) masih ramai ke perempuan yang betul2 baik dan tidak pernah di"sentuh" kecewa aku bila mengetahui segala kebenaran... diorang rasa perbuatan diorang tak diketahui... tapi tuhan mengetahui... dan orang2 yang tengok CCTV pun nampak... yang pasti... diorang tak tau pun CCTV ni kat mana... dan sedekat mana kamera ni boleh focus... kalau nasib baik diorang dapat blah dulu.. kalau tak.. menjawab le korang dengan pak gad bila kena tangkap

ps: tak perlu aku cakap apa yang diorang buat... korang sendiri boleh tau.. bila hari gelap.. tak ramai orang... lagi teruk keadaannya...

Engaged?

This evening I read my messages in my friendster inbox...
And one of my best friends asks me about the news she heard, that I have been engaged… I’m quite shocked!

After I broke last year, I still staying single and met a few girls, but just being friend till now…without “awek” how can I be engaged? Unless my mum voluntarily find one “calon” for me…
The whole evening I think about this… in the shower… showering… I think… while ‘makan-makan” at the mamak restaurant in front of maxis building… still I think about this…
Who the hell la, that wanted my “saham” index drop by making this gossip... I can loose many potential “calon” actually hahahaha…

What I think now is… the fastest time I can be engaged is, after I have 'awek” for 2 month and if I think she is the right one… I meet her parent… if both side satisfied… “Hantar Rombongan” it is just that simple…

But for the time being… still I have to add more saving la… and for the time being also… had to find one first la!

Show Me The Money!!!

hari ni dah masuk 9 june. gaji tempat keje baru aku dah dapat, tapi gaji yang aku keje dengan company lama tak jugak masuk2... cilakak sungguh!! sepatutnya before 1st june gaji aku dah masuk... aku keje sampai 20may..


so i should get 2/3 of my salary last month... ni dah nak masuk separuh bulan.. nak bayar roadtax lagi... bodoh betul la... aku call.. dia cakap nak setel apekejadah... haram jadah... show me the money!!! stupid lazy ass!!

Life in KLCC

Life nowadays is different in the city… last time in the last job every morning I see people drive more than 100kph every morning and now I see people walk just like driving more than 100kph… rushing to work during the rush hour… so I said to my self this was so not me…



Why they were in sucha hurry? It’s all about the money… I hate city life during rush hour… I see drivers around here have a very very super low in patience… once one driver block the road for few seconds you can heard hundreds of honks and beeps a few kilometers away back...



The building where I work just beside the KLCC park, this evening… Saturday… I see love couples walk nearby… It reminds me about the last memories… well its all over now... there will be a new memories incoming… the day will come… and I think I have seen the sign...

My Last Memo to GDC

I type this just before i left from GDC KLIA on the last day and sent to all staff including the CEO... (takde modal nak tulis blog)



Assalamualaikum,Today is my last day in GDC KLIA, next week I will be joining the 'other'company....It is my time to move on towards some goals I have for my careers...With this opportunity, I would like to apologize to all if I have makemistake either direct or indirectly...I wish all staff who will stay with petronas every good fortune with newworkplace later and I would like to thank you for having me as part of yourteam...



jika ada salah dan silap harap dimaafkan...halalkan makan dan minum...jika ada hutang sila contact saya supaya boleh diselesaikan..."



jika ada sumur diladang,
boleh kita menumpang mandi,
jika ada umur panjang,
boleh kita jumpa lagi."



sekian, wassalamWishing you all the best in future undertakings...
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU...

Anonymous (my name)
"twice" in GDC (KLIA) SB

I Resigned

One week left before I resign from GDC, last week I give my notice of resignation letter to my plant manager, I feel that the plant was silent. Not like at the first time I join in this plant, it was by far different. My boss asked me which company I will join. So I tell him I will join the company that will take over GDC in KLCC… My boss just make a note on my resignation letter noting that he releases me from GDC…


And this week, the company that will take over GDC, come to my plant to give information about the outsourcing. And during the meeting the person who interviewed me in KLCC last week proudly announced to all people in the conference room that I am the first person will be hired by the company as their engineer. All people in the plant give a round of applause… I become wordless at that time; never in my life have I experienced the situation…


At the end of this month, again I have to be a trainee engineer, a turbo machinery trainee engineer in KLCC. So I have to move out from sepang and move somewhere in KL. The problem now is to find a new house in KL where is nearest to KLCC…

Just Get Hired

Last year at the same month now... I was searching for a job and attend several interviews, sadly the answer is no... Because I have no experience... what happens really make myself down. During that time I am just a temporary staff in Sepang International circuit... I nearly give up after I failed my last interview somewhere in Nilai. One day I went to lunch with my friend around KLIA area and bump into my former department manager back in 2002. I just ask is there any position there? He just simply replied “no...”

Later on few weeks later I bump into my last internship supervisor and ask the same question… and he replied “you call me after this and I will give you a number and a person to call”. So I did… the person in the phone instructed me to fax my resume to them and I did… I didn’t give much hope on this job and just trying my luck, a week later after my contract with SIC (Sepang International Circuit) ended, a person that I call, meet me to give an offer letter and other document to work with the company where I worked during my internship without any interview but with recommendation from my former supervisor.

So happily I accept the offer… then I know what really happens in this plant… my former manager silently hate my supervisor… since I am close with my supervisor, he don’t want to hire anyone close with my supervisor. At the time he said no to me the company have been searching a suitable person for already 4 months to complete a project. Even though with my 8 month experiences in the plant before make me suitable to complete the maintenance project he can simply said no… just because of jealousy and hate…

The company hires me as a contract staff for a year and only has a day to get knowledge of the project from my supervisor because he is going back to study… I have just one day with my supervisor and the other time was with them who is in that managers side… here is where I gain the ability to work under pressure under minimum supervision with all the load of the project on my shoulder. The project should be done by a team but because of this politics between executives I have to complete it on my own with the help of non-executives. But 90% of load is on me… just try to imagine it yourself… during that time if I have explosives I will not regret to explode the whole office to dust…

Once I e-mailed my supervisor in the university about all this stuff… he just said “be patience and learn to obey your superior”… within 6 months I complete the project. it might not happens if I don’t have communication with my friends… but still all these executive motherf**ker and bitch in this plant not pleased with me… now I just play with this game until my contract ended and win the game… this company will be outsource soon, they all will get their VSS and I get my bonus… hahaha… eat that f**kers!

supervisor, superior, VSS on your face

Last year at the same month now... I was searching for a job and attend several interviews, sadly the answer is no... Because I have no experience... what happens really make myself down. During that time I am just a temporary staff in Sepang International circuit... I nearly give up after I failed my last interview somewhere in Nilai. One day I went to lunch with my friend around KLIA area and bump into my former department manager back in 2002. I just ask is there any position there? He just simply replied “no...”

Later on few weeks later I bump into my last internship supervisor and ask the same question… and he replied “you call me after this and I will give you a number and a person to call”. So I did… the person in the phone instructed me to fax my resume to them and I did… I didn’t give much hope on this job and just trying my luck, a week later after my contract with SIC ended, a person that I call, meet me to give an offer letter and other document to work with the company where I worked during my internship without any interview but with recommendation from my former supervisor.

So happily I accept the offer… then I know what really happens in this plant… my former manager silently hate my supervisor… since I am close with my supervisor, he don’t want to hire anyone close with my supervisor. At the time he said no to me the company have been searching a suitable person for already 4 months to complete a project. Even though with my 8 month experiences in the plant before make me suitable to complete the maintenance project he can simply said no… just because of jealousy and hate…

The company hires me as a contract staff for a year and only has a day to get knowledge of the project from my supervisor because he is going back to study… I have just one day with my supervisor and the other time was with them who is in that managers side… here is where I gain the ability to work under pressure under minimum supervision with all the load of the project on my shoulder. The project should be done by a team but because of this politics between executives I have to complete it on my own with the help of non-executives. But 90% of load is on me… just try to imagine it yourself… during that time if I have explosives I will not regret to explode the whole office to dust…

Once I e-mailed my supervisor in the university about all this stuff… he just said “be patience and learn to obey your superior”… within 6 months I complete the project. it might not happens if I don’t have communication with my friends… but still all these executive motherf**ker and bitch in this plant not pleased with me… now I just play with this game until my contract ended and win the game… this company will be outsource soon, they all will be out of their job here and I get my bonus… hahaha… eat that f**kers!

My Arabic

I think I have to practice my arabic language, if I am selected I minght be interviewed for my arabic language for new position I applied... arranged by a job agent... the problem now is, I have leave it for a long.. long.. time... how to practise... all books is in kampung...

Nasi Kandar bunga popi

Last Wednesday I went to one place in Nilai just to buy lunch with my friends, there was a restaurant there that serves ‘Nasi Kandar’. I just ‘tapau’ my nasi kandar, usually I ordered mutton but since everybody ordered fried chicken so I did order the same for myself. The difference between both is just the ‘kuah’, most customer loves to order fried chicken with that that ‘kuah Power’.

During lunch in the office pantry I did scoop more than I did before, but that kuah seems darker colored than usual and have some particle that seems like vege seed.. I just ignore it and eat it all. Later I went to pray and get back to my place to continue my work… few moments later I feel dizzy and very damn sleepy I never felt before at my office. I sit back and rest my head to my chair.. Then I feel like I’m flying and so is my mind ‘laloq’ semacam je… somehow still manage to ‘layan’ my buddies in Yahoo Messenger till dark.

Usually I went to gym but since I felt strange with my head I just went home, nothing happen during driving home, somehow still managed to buy something in ‘pasar malam’ in pekan Salak, nothing weird just somebody staring at me differently.. At home after Maghrib prayer I slept and woke up feeling better.. I told my sister about what happen that day and my sis said “ biasa la.. Org masak Nasik Kandar biasanya masukkan popi seed utk bagi power tak pun untuk bagi customer tak lari.. Kak ngah pun tak caya, tapi bila polis sendiri bagitau, bila makan nasi kandar dengan geng2 diorang untuk test betul ke tak, bila buat urine test suma didapati positive”. Hmm... quite unbelievable but since what happen to me that day makes me believe. I guess that I’ve been overdose of Dope seed that day. I think I should stick with lauk kambing..

Executivism

Today I discover one truth about life between the executive and non-executive. Life is unfair for the non-executive. Low paid and has to obey all rules made by the executive.

This executive do whatever they like. Broke the promise and being ignorance with everything about non-executive rights. Blocking the chances for best employee to get a job promotion is a common case. They mercilessly do this, as they want.

Since I was just a contract staff, not much I can help in this organization. Usually my boss asks me give them advise and help them to improve in their work grade. Recently I did in their supervisory program. However I feel aggravated when non-executives that I help have been stopped from being promoted one grade up, just because of miscommunication, which is caused by this bloodsucking HRM executive.

As for me, I’m neither executive nor non-executive, I’m without grade, I’m just a contract staff..

Losers back off

Today, i come to office as usual, punch my card, eat my bread for breakfast and attend morning meeting as usual. during morning meeting my boss join in to inform latest news about our company outsourcing.. he told us that one out of three company that trying to take over the plant operation in KLCC has backed off, since they did not satisfied with their share percentage in this company, so they backed off.. GDC KLCC staff have already celebrated this situation last friday in KFC KLCC..

For some staff in KLIA, this is the new hope to still stay working in the same place without fear of being transfered to west Malaysia. however, my boss said, GDC will still be outsourced in a year. for those who have got offer letter from other OPU, HRM will hold them until further notice.. this announcement seems making some staff mumbling and nagging about HRM stupid decission...

As for me.. i dont know what to say, last week i have posted my job application letter to the company that backed off! but strangely i felt like being fu-ck-ed off.. ! why? coz i have e-mailed the application to work in Sudan! Damn it! well.. the announcement is still new.. tomorrow we will get clear about this situation. AARRGGGHHHH!!!!

Star Wars III

Boleh dikatakan aku ni memang star wars fan. cuma star wars from episode 4-6 je yang tak tengok kat cinema. episode 1&2 tengok kat cinema tapi sorang-sorang je gi tengok. kalau kat utp biasa gi tengok dengan geng-geng utp, tapi bila time star wars mesti time tu UTP tengah cuti semester.



star wars III: Revenge of The Sith is coming soon this May. nampak gayanya macam gi tengok sorang2 lagi la kot.. or maybe if somebody invite, i can go with 'em. if not.. like the old days.. tengok sorang-sorang..

last time after seeing star wars II, since long gap between star wars II and III, i thought during star wars III i will be in the cinema with a lady, but.. ugh.. like the old days again.. going alone.. i have only 2 weeks left.. could it make a difference? mmm.. we'll see.. This time the difference is, i'm not a utp student anymore.. already graduated..

company outsource

Bila company nak kena jual ni macam-macam hal kita boleh tengok, bila company tempat aku keje ni nak kena outsource, macam-macam aku bleh tengok, dari segi characteristic, lain orang lain perubahan. contohnye... my bos.. dulu tiap2 kali lalu depan bilik bos, mesti ada je document dia dok sain.tapi sejak kebelakangan ni, aku tengok termenung depan monitor pc, tu kira ok lagi, yang aku pelik bila termenung tengok siling! kesian.. kesian...

Yang Operation superintendent lak, tiap2 pagi dalam meeting mesti ada je sebut pasal joining company lain, tapi bila time turn aku mesti dia cakap "mie kalau ada company baru, bagitau le kat aku jangan pegi sorang2 je".. nak wat cemana aku contract.. i have freedom to choose.. kalau maintenance manager lak, tak habis-habis dengan nak join petronas kat sudan.. habis suma budak2 nak diangkut pegi sudan.. tapi aku rasa macam hangat2 taik ayam je.. aku pun confuse nak apply ke tanak.. sudan tu macam Malaysia tahun 1980.. cuma gaji dalam USD.. nak ikut ke nak kena tinggal.. masalahnya maintenance manager ni lain skit..

Kalau staff-staff lain lak macam dah moral down. bila suma bincang pasal nak gi mana, suma muka jadik sedih, aku lak... hehehe dalam ati gelak kuat-kuat kat yg dengki dengan aku.. mungkin aku bleh sambung dengan company yang amik alih, cuma bezanya bangsa lain la.. kalau tak dapat.. i have my plan.. i have my plan.. kalau plan tak jadi.. balik kampung..